Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 7:36 pm
TWENTY
Lois desperately wanted to stay awake until Clark returned to the hospital, but she couldn’t avoid the persuasive spell that fatigue had cast on her. Before drifting off to sleep, the last thing she recalled seeing was Jason seated in the vinyl chair beside her bed, his nose buried in his book…
***
In her dreams, however, Jason sat at her side. Not on the hospital chair, but on a piano bench, humming a tune she certainly recognized. She closed her eyes and began to hum along with him at first, then quietly recited the verses as they came to her.
“Heart and soul, I fell in love with you heart and soul…the way a fool would do…”
The humming stopped, and Lois snapped her eyes open and looked at the bench, but both it and Jason had vanished.
“Jason?”
No answer.
She clamped her eyes shut again and gave full voice to the lyrics now, wondering perhaps if he heard her singing, he’d come back.
“Heart and soul, I begged to be adored…lost control, and tumbled overboard…”
“..gladly,” a deep voice finished for her, its pitch just slightly off-key.
She smiled as she took a look at the owner of the voice. Apparently singing was not one of Clark’s great abilities…at least not in her dreams.
Clark sat down beside her on the bed, then scooped her up into a hug. She was blissfully pain-free in her dream-state and she comfortably nestled herself in his arms.
“But now I see,” she continued softly. “What one embrace can do…look at me, it’s got me loving you…”
“…madly,” he whispered into her ear.
“That little kiss you stole…held all my heart and soul.”
***
Lois’s eyes fluttered open, and an odd feeling came over her as the memory of the dream lingered. But there were voices in the hospital room, speaking softly in hushed tones, which made her temporarily push the dream from her mind. After just a moment of listening carefully, she realized the voices were Clark’s and Jason’s. Lois closed her eyes again quickly, not wanting to give away the fact that she’d begun to stir. She lay still and – with only a small feeling of guilt nipping at the heels of her conscience – began to eavesdrop on their conversation.
“…I saw a picture, on your desk….from when you were a little kid,” Jason whispered. “Mom told me your dad died.”
“Yes,” Clark answered quietly. “When I was seventeen…of a heart attack.
“Do you miss him?”
“Yes…every day.”
“What was he like?”
Lois listened as Clark described the man who raised him. The elder Mr. Kent, a man neither she nor Jason would ever get a chance to know, was down-to-earth and hard-working; honest and loyal; good and loving – all traits which he passed on to his adopted child.
Anytime Lois had ever bothered to stop to consider Clark’s life in Kansas before, it was always to imagine him as a dorky hayseed who probably excelled at nothing more than corn-shucking and pie-eating contests. Once again, she realized how terribly unjust she had always been to him.
Lois wondered if Clark had been the one to discover his father after the heart attack. Against the backdrop of light that filtered through her eyelids, Lois pictured the aged farmer, lying lifeless in the arms of his mournful son. She pictured Mrs. Kent weeping at Clark’s side. Lois took a sharp breath in to prevent a sob from escaping her. She remembered holding and consoling Jason after Richard’s death, each of them a comfort to the other. She had been the woman mourning with her son in that instance, something of a reflection of Clark and his mother. Lois hoped to one day meet Mrs. Kent, certain she’d be meeting a truly remarkable woman.
“Mom also told me…” Jason paused, and Lois was almost certain what he was going to have Clark confirm next. Clark, however, wasn’t so sure. She heard the nervous uncertainty in his voice when he responded.
“Your mom told you what?” Clark choked out in a whisper.
Poor Clark, Lois thought. She had half a mind to pop her eyes back open to tell him already. Jason knows! Just hug each other, bond, and have it done with! But, in her experience, male bonding never went so easily.
“Mom told me that you’re adopted,” Jason finished.
Lois heard Clark breathe what she could only guess was a sigh of relief.
“That’s right,” Clark verified.
“Your other parents…do you remember them?”
Clark took a moment before answering. “I know what they look like—”
“Do you have pictures?”
“Sort of,” Clark replied. “I know what they look like and I know the sound of their voices, but I can’t actually remember the time I spent with them when they were alive...I was just an infant when they died.”
“How did it happen?”
“Their home was destroyed…they died when this happened.”
“But you thought maybe it didn’t happen, didn’t you? That’s why you went away.” Lois could hear comprehension dawning in Jason’s voice. “I remember now, one of those old newspapers hanging at Mom’s – and your – office…the one that says…you went to see if your parents were okay!” Lois fully expected Jason to exclaim ‘Aha!’ next. Instead, in a melancholy voice, he asked Clark, “But they weren’t okay, were they?”
“No, they weren’t,” said Clark. “But how did you…did your mom say something about…”
“About you being you-know-who?” Jason asked in a voice Lois could barely make out. “No, Mom’s pretty good at keeping secrets…she didn’t tell. She didn’t tell the other part, either. I just knew.”
“The other part?”
“The part about you really being…my dad.”
At this, there was an infinite span of silence, or so it seemed to Lois, from her post in the hospital bed. She wanted badly to peek to see if Clark had fallen out of his chair.
“That’s true, Jason,” Clark affirmed, finally breaking the silence. “You knew?”
“Yeah,” Jason said. “I did, because…well, because of a lot of things. I haven’t even shown Mom this yet, but I’ve wanted to show you…”
Lois’s ears perked up.
Jason cleared his throat, then said in a very faint whisper, “I think Mom’s awake, but I should probably show her, too.”
Lois heard Clark chuckle. “I think she’s been awake for a while…should we find out for sure?”
Lois popped her eyes open before Clark got a chance to prove his point. His hand was poised to tickle her foot.
“Okay, I give up,” Lois said, pulling her foot away defensively. There was just no fun in eavesdropping on a couple of people with the ability to detect changes in heart rate and breathing patterns. “Show me what, Jason?” She looked cautiously towards the door. After all, a nurse could walk in at any time…
Jason hopped down from his seat and walked to the door. He stood in place in front of it, and looked down at his sneakers with firm resolution. “I can’t always do it. Sometimes I’m just as slow as ever…”
“It’s okay if you can’t, sweetheart,” Lois told him, taking a guess that her child was going to attempt to move at super speed.
Jason looked at Clark. “I’ll try my very best,” he said.
Clark nodded. “That’s all you can do, Jason.”
Lois held her breath as she watched Jason ball his hands into two tight fists. He exhaled sharply as he continued to stare at his sneakers for the next minute.
Two minutes passed, then three…
He couldn’t do it. Lois’s heart sank. Frankly, she didn’t care at what velocity he could move, she just couldn’t bear to see him disappointed.
Four minutes now, and he was still focused on his sneakers, as if perhaps willing them to move like lightning would make it so.
She began to open her mouth to say, “Jason, if you can’t do this…it’s okay…it’s more than okay! We love you no matter what, Jason!” But before she could open her mouth to form the first syllable of the first word…
Whoosh!
Jason was standing at the other side of the hospital room, his hair windswept but – other than that – looking none the worse for the wear.
“I can’t always do it,” he repeated. He wasn’t even out of breath, and there wasn’t a trace of perspiration on him. Not a single, tiny bead. “I have to really concentrate. But when I do, I’m fast.”
***
“Another day or possibly two,” the doctor told her a little later on, in regards to the question of when she’d be departing Metropolis General. “You’re doing well, but I’d rather err on the side of caution, Ms. Lane, just to be certain. And even then, I need your solemn vow…to take it easy.”
Lois vowed she’d try her best. Like Clark’s advice to Jason, it was all she could do.
“So, what’s all this?” she asked Clark, after the doctor departed and a nurse volunteered to take Jason to the nurses’ station for a cup of non-dairy hot cocoa. Lois was pointing to a black bag on the floor between the two chairs.
“Your laptop, and…” Clark paused. “I was hesitant to show you this.” He fished out a folded newspaper and slowly handed it over to her.
Lois opened the paper and raised an eyebrow as she saw that it was an edition of the Metropolis Star, and not the Planet.
“Why’d you bring me this rag, Clark?” she sniffed, reluctantly looking down to scan the headline. In an instant she knew exactly why. The headline read Metropolis Transit Workers Strike! Popular Newswoman Nearly Massacred in Mob Scene, with the byline credited to Abe Washburn. Lois groaned. “Popular? What is this, junior high school? Good God, Washburn could’ve done better than that! I’ve been scooped by a moron!”
Clark gave her a sympathetic look, then sat down beside her on the bed. She tossed the paper aside.
“You’re not even going to read it?” he asked.
“Why bother?” she said with a shrug of her shoulders. “There are bigger stories out there.”
Clark furrowed his brow and gave her a look of disapproval. “Like what?” he said.
“Like Boy Reveals His Awareness of True Parentage! Mother and Father Try to Cope…with a follow-up of Even More New Coping Skills Needed! Boy’s Emergent Superpowers Prove to be Problematic During Field Day at Local Elementary School…that particular story tells how the boy in question broke records in every event, including the beanbag relay, sack hop and Frisbee toss.”
Clark couldn’t help but laugh. “Does kind of makes you look at things from a different perspective doesn’t it? Our situation, I mean.”
Lois took his hand. “Yeah, it does. I began to look at lots of things differently when I became a parent. You’ve just gotten a late start is all.” She gave his hand a squeeze.
“Jason seemed…so accepting,” Clark said. “But what if I’m no good at this? What if…”
“You’re not alone in this, you know,” Lois assured him. She brought his hand to her mouth and planted a firm kiss there. “We have each other.”
***
TBC
Author’s Note: Heart and Soul lyrics by Frank Loesser. The old newspaper headline Jason was referring to was one entitled Is It Krypton? which ran in the Daily Planet on Monday, August 16th, 2000. And how do I know this? Because I own the visual guide to SR, of course! ;-)
Lois desperately wanted to stay awake until Clark returned to the hospital, but she couldn’t avoid the persuasive spell that fatigue had cast on her. Before drifting off to sleep, the last thing she recalled seeing was Jason seated in the vinyl chair beside her bed, his nose buried in his book…
***
In her dreams, however, Jason sat at her side. Not on the hospital chair, but on a piano bench, humming a tune she certainly recognized. She closed her eyes and began to hum along with him at first, then quietly recited the verses as they came to her.
“Heart and soul, I fell in love with you heart and soul…the way a fool would do…”
The humming stopped, and Lois snapped her eyes open and looked at the bench, but both it and Jason had vanished.
“Jason?”
No answer.
She clamped her eyes shut again and gave full voice to the lyrics now, wondering perhaps if he heard her singing, he’d come back.
“Heart and soul, I begged to be adored…lost control, and tumbled overboard…”
“..gladly,” a deep voice finished for her, its pitch just slightly off-key.
She smiled as she took a look at the owner of the voice. Apparently singing was not one of Clark’s great abilities…at least not in her dreams.
Clark sat down beside her on the bed, then scooped her up into a hug. She was blissfully pain-free in her dream-state and she comfortably nestled herself in his arms.
“But now I see,” she continued softly. “What one embrace can do…look at me, it’s got me loving you…”
“…madly,” he whispered into her ear.
“That little kiss you stole…held all my heart and soul.”
***
Lois’s eyes fluttered open, and an odd feeling came over her as the memory of the dream lingered. But there were voices in the hospital room, speaking softly in hushed tones, which made her temporarily push the dream from her mind. After just a moment of listening carefully, she realized the voices were Clark’s and Jason’s. Lois closed her eyes again quickly, not wanting to give away the fact that she’d begun to stir. She lay still and – with only a small feeling of guilt nipping at the heels of her conscience – began to eavesdrop on their conversation.
“…I saw a picture, on your desk….from when you were a little kid,” Jason whispered. “Mom told me your dad died.”
“Yes,” Clark answered quietly. “When I was seventeen…of a heart attack.
“Do you miss him?”
“Yes…every day.”
“What was he like?”
Lois listened as Clark described the man who raised him. The elder Mr. Kent, a man neither she nor Jason would ever get a chance to know, was down-to-earth and hard-working; honest and loyal; good and loving – all traits which he passed on to his adopted child.
Anytime Lois had ever bothered to stop to consider Clark’s life in Kansas before, it was always to imagine him as a dorky hayseed who probably excelled at nothing more than corn-shucking and pie-eating contests. Once again, she realized how terribly unjust she had always been to him.
Lois wondered if Clark had been the one to discover his father after the heart attack. Against the backdrop of light that filtered through her eyelids, Lois pictured the aged farmer, lying lifeless in the arms of his mournful son. She pictured Mrs. Kent weeping at Clark’s side. Lois took a sharp breath in to prevent a sob from escaping her. She remembered holding and consoling Jason after Richard’s death, each of them a comfort to the other. She had been the woman mourning with her son in that instance, something of a reflection of Clark and his mother. Lois hoped to one day meet Mrs. Kent, certain she’d be meeting a truly remarkable woman.
“Mom also told me…” Jason paused, and Lois was almost certain what he was going to have Clark confirm next. Clark, however, wasn’t so sure. She heard the nervous uncertainty in his voice when he responded.
“Your mom told you what?” Clark choked out in a whisper.
Poor Clark, Lois thought. She had half a mind to pop her eyes back open to tell him already. Jason knows! Just hug each other, bond, and have it done with! But, in her experience, male bonding never went so easily.
“Mom told me that you’re adopted,” Jason finished.
Lois heard Clark breathe what she could only guess was a sigh of relief.
“That’s right,” Clark verified.
“Your other parents…do you remember them?”
Clark took a moment before answering. “I know what they look like—”
“Do you have pictures?”
“Sort of,” Clark replied. “I know what they look like and I know the sound of their voices, but I can’t actually remember the time I spent with them when they were alive...I was just an infant when they died.”
“How did it happen?”
“Their home was destroyed…they died when this happened.”
“But you thought maybe it didn’t happen, didn’t you? That’s why you went away.” Lois could hear comprehension dawning in Jason’s voice. “I remember now, one of those old newspapers hanging at Mom’s – and your – office…the one that says…you went to see if your parents were okay!” Lois fully expected Jason to exclaim ‘Aha!’ next. Instead, in a melancholy voice, he asked Clark, “But they weren’t okay, were they?”
“No, they weren’t,” said Clark. “But how did you…did your mom say something about…”
“About you being you-know-who?” Jason asked in a voice Lois could barely make out. “No, Mom’s pretty good at keeping secrets…she didn’t tell. She didn’t tell the other part, either. I just knew.”
“The other part?”
“The part about you really being…my dad.”
At this, there was an infinite span of silence, or so it seemed to Lois, from her post in the hospital bed. She wanted badly to peek to see if Clark had fallen out of his chair.
“That’s true, Jason,” Clark affirmed, finally breaking the silence. “You knew?”
“Yeah,” Jason said. “I did, because…well, because of a lot of things. I haven’t even shown Mom this yet, but I’ve wanted to show you…”
Lois’s ears perked up.
Jason cleared his throat, then said in a very faint whisper, “I think Mom’s awake, but I should probably show her, too.”
Lois heard Clark chuckle. “I think she’s been awake for a while…should we find out for sure?”
Lois popped her eyes open before Clark got a chance to prove his point. His hand was poised to tickle her foot.
“Okay, I give up,” Lois said, pulling her foot away defensively. There was just no fun in eavesdropping on a couple of people with the ability to detect changes in heart rate and breathing patterns. “Show me what, Jason?” She looked cautiously towards the door. After all, a nurse could walk in at any time…
Jason hopped down from his seat and walked to the door. He stood in place in front of it, and looked down at his sneakers with firm resolution. “I can’t always do it. Sometimes I’m just as slow as ever…”
“It’s okay if you can’t, sweetheart,” Lois told him, taking a guess that her child was going to attempt to move at super speed.
Jason looked at Clark. “I’ll try my very best,” he said.
Clark nodded. “That’s all you can do, Jason.”
Lois held her breath as she watched Jason ball his hands into two tight fists. He exhaled sharply as he continued to stare at his sneakers for the next minute.
Two minutes passed, then three…
He couldn’t do it. Lois’s heart sank. Frankly, she didn’t care at what velocity he could move, she just couldn’t bear to see him disappointed.
Four minutes now, and he was still focused on his sneakers, as if perhaps willing them to move like lightning would make it so.
She began to open her mouth to say, “Jason, if you can’t do this…it’s okay…it’s more than okay! We love you no matter what, Jason!” But before she could open her mouth to form the first syllable of the first word…
Whoosh!
Jason was standing at the other side of the hospital room, his hair windswept but – other than that – looking none the worse for the wear.
“I can’t always do it,” he repeated. He wasn’t even out of breath, and there wasn’t a trace of perspiration on him. Not a single, tiny bead. “I have to really concentrate. But when I do, I’m fast.”
***
“Another day or possibly two,” the doctor told her a little later on, in regards to the question of when she’d be departing Metropolis General. “You’re doing well, but I’d rather err on the side of caution, Ms. Lane, just to be certain. And even then, I need your solemn vow…to take it easy.”
Lois vowed she’d try her best. Like Clark’s advice to Jason, it was all she could do.
“So, what’s all this?” she asked Clark, after the doctor departed and a nurse volunteered to take Jason to the nurses’ station for a cup of non-dairy hot cocoa. Lois was pointing to a black bag on the floor between the two chairs.
“Your laptop, and…” Clark paused. “I was hesitant to show you this.” He fished out a folded newspaper and slowly handed it over to her.
Lois opened the paper and raised an eyebrow as she saw that it was an edition of the Metropolis Star, and not the Planet.
“Why’d you bring me this rag, Clark?” she sniffed, reluctantly looking down to scan the headline. In an instant she knew exactly why. The headline read Metropolis Transit Workers Strike! Popular Newswoman Nearly Massacred in Mob Scene, with the byline credited to Abe Washburn. Lois groaned. “Popular? What is this, junior high school? Good God, Washburn could’ve done better than that! I’ve been scooped by a moron!”
Clark gave her a sympathetic look, then sat down beside her on the bed. She tossed the paper aside.
“You’re not even going to read it?” he asked.
“Why bother?” she said with a shrug of her shoulders. “There are bigger stories out there.”
Clark furrowed his brow and gave her a look of disapproval. “Like what?” he said.
“Like Boy Reveals His Awareness of True Parentage! Mother and Father Try to Cope…with a follow-up of Even More New Coping Skills Needed! Boy’s Emergent Superpowers Prove to be Problematic During Field Day at Local Elementary School…that particular story tells how the boy in question broke records in every event, including the beanbag relay, sack hop and Frisbee toss.”
Clark couldn’t help but laugh. “Does kind of makes you look at things from a different perspective doesn’t it? Our situation, I mean.”
Lois took his hand. “Yeah, it does. I began to look at lots of things differently when I became a parent. You’ve just gotten a late start is all.” She gave his hand a squeeze.
“Jason seemed…so accepting,” Clark said. “But what if I’m no good at this? What if…”
“You’re not alone in this, you know,” Lois assured him. She brought his hand to her mouth and planted a firm kiss there. “We have each other.”
***
TBC
Author’s Note: Heart and Soul lyrics by Frank Loesser. The old newspaper headline Jason was referring to was one entitled Is It Krypton? which ran in the Daily Planet on Monday, August 16th, 2000. And how do I know this? Because I own the visual guide to SR, of course! ;-)