Author's Note: Thanks you two. Just to be nice, I posted two parts together. I hope that doesn't take away from Liz and Max's first meeting! Tell me what you think
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Part 3</center>
Liz picked up the crumpled paper bag along with the napkins and other utensils as she cleared away the bed. She had to admit that the food from the Crashdown had been good, better than she had expected. Though her expectations had been pretty low considering the names the food sported.
Something besides the food also turned out to be better than expected.
The thought rushed through her head unexpectedly as soft brown eyes flashed across her inner eye as she dumped the trash in the disposal. She recalled the split second recognition she had seen in them, mirroring her own. She saw the warmth in them, felt the tickle at the base of her neck. She jerked upright, irritated by the direction her thoughts were taking. She plopped down on the bed, unconsciously rubbing the back of her neck where she could still feel the tickle. She couldn’t seem to get that guy out of her mind. He had been on her mind throughout dinner and just when she thought she had managed to push thoughts of him aside, there he was again. Never had such a brief and impersonal encounter with a stranger taken over her thoughts. Never had she had trouble pushing away from her mind what had been, she tried to convince herself, a simple and brief exchange of words with a stranger. A handsome and incredibly good looking stranger.
Irritated and more than a little uneasy by what should have meant nothing to her, she pushed away from the bed, choosing instead to pace the length of the room. She could forget about the guy and his incredible eyes. She could. It was just a matter of mind over matter. Right?
All I have to do is simply refuse to think about him. Liz tried to convince herself as she paced restlessly across the room.
Forget about the way his eyes were this brilliant deep shade of brown and the rich timber of his voice…
“Liz, are you feeling alright?” Michael asked when he came out of the bathroom and saw her standing in the middle of the room, looking flushed.
She hadn’t heard Michael come out and so the sound of his voice had her jerking around violently. “Huh?”
“You’re looking a bit flushed,” he observed with a slightly worried frown. “Are you feeling okay?”
“Umm…yeah,” Liz assured him, silently cursing herself for letting a guy cloud her thoughts. Shouldn’t she know better by now? “I’m fine. I-I’m just tired. It’s been a long day.”
Michael nodded in understanding. “Yeah, I guess it has.”
Liz deliberately pushed the guy out of her mind and carefully sat down on the bed, watching as Michael went to his. Her gaze fell on the picture that stood on the table between their beds and she picked it up, a silent longing sweeping through her as she looked at it.
It was a picture of her and Michael taken a year back at their junior prom. They looked so happy in the picture, both smiling brightly. Their smiles spoke volumes about how they believed life couldn’t be any more perfect.
How innocent we look. Liz thought as she ran light fingers over their smiling faces, a sharp pain enveloping her heart.
How were we to know just how crazy our lives were about to get.
“Liz…”
Liz looked up at the soft sound in Michael’s voice and found him watching her. His eyes shone with obvious pain as his gaze too fell on the picture she still held in her hands. Averting her eyes from Michael’s, Liz carefully set the picture down willing the pain and sadness to back down. Once she was sure she had her emotions under control, she fixed a small smile on her face.
“I was just remembering,” she told him.
Michael’s gaze flicked to the picture then back to her, a sad look in his eyes. “It seems like so long ago.”
Liz nodded wistfully, her gaze also falling back on the picture. “Yeah, it does.” She looked back up at Michael. “Like maybe it was another life…”
“It’s a part of our lives that we’ve left behind,” Michael reminded her.
“Yeah…,” Liz said softly, sliding down to lie on her bed. She heard Michael getting underneath the covers but she shut off the sounds. She turned sideways, tucking her hand under her head as she looked off into space.
They had left that life behind them now. They had left all the pains, all the struggles, all the betrayals hundreds of miles behind. She wasn’t ever going to go back. She wasn’t ever going to be placed into a situation like the one she had been in before she had left. She was never going to trust so blindly. She couldn’t afford to make such a mistake again.
She closed her eyes tightly for a brief moment as recalled the last few weeks before she had left. The danger, the violence, the lies….
No, I’m never going back. She thought fiercely.
It’s behind me now. I’m safe, away from him.
But she hadn’t just left Sean and her bad memories behind. She had also left behind her family, her friends, and her home. In escaping from her torments, she had also had to leave behind the one thing she was truly grateful for in her life: her family. She willed the tears back as she thought about her mom and dad; how she had left them thinking that she’d be back when she had no intention of doing so. But she hadn’t had a choice. She couldn’t tell them that she wasn’t coming back because then they’d never let her leave. And if they tried to stop her then she might have lost all her resolve. She might never have been free of Sean then, never been truly able to get away from Kivar.
She couldn’t have told her parents the truth, either about the situation or about herself. There was always the danger that they would not understand. And even if they did, she would only end up putting their lives in danger too, and no matter what she would never do that. She had sworn to protect them from every problem in her twisted life; sworn to keep them safe from her enemies. They had already come too close. She had already let danger come to their doorstep. She would never allow that to happen again. And that’s why leaving the way she did had been the only solution.
I couldn’t tell them, Liz repeated to herself.
I couldn’t take the risk.
Maybe coming to Roswell had been the right thing to do. Maybe searching for her real family, her alien family, would help ease her ache. She had something to look forward to, another sort of family. Maybe that was her destiny. That thought brought her comfort and, for a while, she felt excited at the prospect of finally meeting them. But then that excitement was dashed by another thought. She turned hurriedly to face Michael.
“Michael,” she said. When he turned over to look at her, she blurted out, “How will we find them?”
“Who?” Michael asked, his brow furrowing.
“The others…,” Liz replied. “How do we know where to look? What if they aren’t even here?”
“We follow our instincts, Liz,” Michael replied. “That’s what led me here in the first place. Maybe if we continue to trust in it, it’ll lead us to them.”
“What if it doesn’t?” Liz asked almost fearfully. “What if – God, Michael…what if they’re dead?”
A flash of doubt appeared in Michael’s eyes but that was instantly replaced by dead certainty. “I think that if anything would have happened to them, we would have known. They’re here, Liz. We just have to find them.”
In Michael’s surety, Liz felt her doubts and fear fall away. They would find the others. One way or another, they would. It was just a matter of time.
“You know, for the first time in a long while I feel in control again,” Liz admitted with a soft smile. “Thank you, Michael.”
“For what?”
“For catching me when I fell.”
Michael’s eyes softened. “I’ll always catch you when you fall, Liz. Always.”
“I know,” Liz answered as she gave him another smile before reaching out to switch off the light.
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** Flash **
“Sean…,” Liz whispered as she turned her head to look over at him. He was standing nonchalantly, propped up next to his car, but even in the dim light Liz could see the cold look in his eyes. Liz stifled a gasp as everything suddenly came rushing back to her. “Why?”
“Why do you think?” Sean sneered.
“I trusted you!” Liz cried out.
“I know.”
“Michael’s going to come for me, you know,” Liz told Sean, praying fervently that it was true.
“He’ll never find you,” Sean replied with a pleased smile.
She closed her eyes, refusing to let the tears fall. “What do you want?” Liz asked quietly, her voice shaky.
“What I want doesn’t matter,” Sean replied with a careless shrug. He reached into his jacket and pulled out a gun, taking aim at her. “It’s what Kivar wants that does.”
If the gun being aimed at her had not rendered her motionless, then the sound of Kivar’s name would have. With eyes wide with terror she looked at Sean, her heart refusing to believe such betrayal.
** End Flash **
With the scream still tearing at her throat, Liz shot up in bed. Blind with terror and rage, she fought the arms that wound around her. Struggling wildly she gasped, sucking air into her lungs. With the images of her nightmare still flashing before her eyes she opened her mouth to scream again, desperate to fight of the hands that held her captive. She tried to raise her hands to blast whoever was holding her confined but she found them pinned at her sides.
“Liz! Liz, open your eyes!” Michael’s voice came from next to her. “It was just a dream. It’s over now. Open your eyes, Lizzie.”
At the sound of her best friend’s soothing voice Liz stopped struggling and realized that the hands holding her, keeping her arms pinned weren’t those of her captor’s but Michael’s. The hand caressing her hair, smoothing it back from her tear soaked face was Michael’s. With a sob, she allowed herself to collapse against him, for a brief moment taking in his strength and support unashamedly.
Her body shook with sobs as she clung to him, her face buried in his shirt. He held her close, protectively as he shushed her.
“Let it out, Liz,” he advised in a soft voice. “Let it all out.”
“I-It’s all I k-keep seeing…,” Liz sobbed, “Over and over again. It keeps repeating in my head. It never stops. Oh God, I just want it to stop!”
Michael swallowed hard as he felt tears clog the back of his throat. For the millionth time he thought that this should not have been the way for her. She did not deserve to go through such pain and guilt over what had not been her fault.
“Why didn’t I see this happening? Why wasn’t I strong enough to fight him?” Liz asked, still clutching at Michael, her sobs having subsided to just tears. She turned her face up to him and he saw the confusion and devastation in her eyes. “I’m an alien with immense power for God’s sake! Why didn’t I see it? Why didn’t I get some flash or a premonition? How did I let him get so close? What’s the use of having powers like mine when I can’t even use them to save myself, or to be given some warnings?”
“You
did save yourself, Liz!” Michael reasoned. “You used your powers to save yourself when it mattered most. You got away. They didn’t get to you.”
“At what cost?” Liz demanded, pushing slightly away from him. “I have nightmares, Michael! Guilt eats away at me and I’m terrified of being caught again.” She shuddered slightly as she remembered her use of power that day. She had never thought herself capable of that much power. “I just wanted to stun him, not hurt him enough to knock him out. God, the power was so intense…”
“First off all, you are not going to get caught again. I’m going to make sure Kivar never finds us again. And second, you have no reason to feel guilty because if you hadn’t managed to knock Sean unconscious then I doubt if I could have gotten to you in time, or that you would have escaped.”
“It’s not that. It’s not only that,” Liz told him. “What terrifies me the most is that I lost control over my powers that day. It seemed like I was no longer in charge of my own self. I didn’t even think twice about hitting him with a blast that powerful or using my mind to throw him across the room like that! I didn’t even know I could do that! Yes, I hate that I didn’t figure out who he truly was before, but I didn’t want to hurt him even when I knew! I had no control over what I was doing and the thought that that might happen again terrifies me. What if I hurt you one day? Or another innocent?”
“You won’t,” Michael replied confidently.
Liz got up from the bed now, agitated and still winded from her dream. “How do you know that? How can you say that for sure?” She challenged, tugging her hair. “I can still feel it…the power surging through me…,” she trailed off, looking momentarily at her hands. “There could have been another way…some way except this…”
“Liz…,” Michael started to say when he saw the tears pool up once more in her eyes but Liz shook her head quickly, wiping at her eyes.
“I need to be alone for a while,” she replied, grabbing her jacket and tugging it on, silently grateful for having fallen asleep in her clothes. “I’m going out for a walk. I’ll be back later.”
Michael nodded, though hesitantly. He knew better than to stop her. She needed some time to herself right now, so he’d give it to her. As the door slammed behind Liz, he wondered if leaving the place where it had all happened would do any good after all.
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The carousel lay in darkness; its bright lights and joyful music shut off. Even in an abandoned state the carousel drew Liz to it. The elegantly carved horses, the golden bars stirring fond memories; memories that managed to drive away her dark thoughts for the time being.
Leaning over the railing that ran around the carousel, Liz closed her eyes and imagined it churning to life. She could almost see its lights flashing brightly; hear its music floating in the air. She could almost imagine the horses’ gentle and calming movements as the music weaved a magical spell around the carousel. For some reason, carousels had always calmed her, made her feel secure. Whenever she had been troubled or scared, she would sneak away and sit on the bench facing the carousel in the park near her house, just taking in its magic.
She didn’t know why she was so enraptured by a simple ride. Maybe it was because the first outing she’d had with her adoptive parents had been to go sit on a carousel or maybe it was the magic she felt ensconcing her whenever she sat on the ride that made her feel safe, allowing her to forget the real world for a blissful moment. Whatever the reason, she took comfort in it once more.
Feeling confident and safe amongst the serenity of the ride, Liz allowed her thoughts to catch up with her. Her mind going back to the hotel room, she felt guilt prick at her for the way she had rounded on Michael. He had just been trying to help; he had already done so much for her. She shouldn’t have talked to him like that, shouldn’t have pushed him away like she had.
He didn’t deserve that, she thought as she bit her lip regretfully.
An unexpected tear slipped down from the corner of her eye as she cursed the person who was responsible for making her feel like this. If thoughts of Sean finding her didn’t terrify her so much, if she didn’t have constant nightmares about Kivar catching her and Michael then she wouldn’t feel so cautious and guilty all the time. She wouldn’t hate herself for being so afraid.
I just took out all my anger and frustration out at Michael. I poured out all my worries and fears on him without giving him a chance to understand them, Liz realized remorsefully.
I owe him an apology.
Wiping the tear from her cheek, she made a mental note to buy some new Metallica CDs as an apology and thank-you gift. Smiling to herself over the idea, Liz wrapped her arms around herself, trying to warm up in the chilly wind as she mentally went through all the albums Michael already had. Wryly she wondered if she’d actually be able to find something Metallica related that Michael
didn’t already have.
An absent smile touched her lips and eyes as she thought hard. She was so engrossed in trying to think of the perfect gift that she didn’t hear the footsteps behind here. She didn’t see or feel the person stop behind her, watching her raptly until he finally spoke.
“It used to be a grand old thing before they closed it down,” a deep voice said.
With a startled gasp, Liz whipped around, her hand rising instinctively before she caught herself and lowered it. Looking up at the person who had spoken, Liz felt her breath catch. She found herself staring into those same warm brown eyes that had captivated her thoughts throughout dinner, found herself being gazed at by the same handsome guy from the café.
When Max had decided to go for a late night run, the last person he expected to see was the beautiful doe-eyed angel he had seen at the Crashdown. But there she had been, like a vision, standing near the carousel with a smile on her lips.
He had watched her unobserved for a moment. He was once more struck by her beauty. The way her dark chocolate brown hair spilled down her back, the way the moon shone down on her creamy skin giving her an ethereal glow. He was enraptured by the sight of her, drinking her in.
He watched her gaze at the carousel with a distant smile on her lips, appearing calm and content but for some reason Max felt the loneliness surrounding her and he felt her grief. He wondered why she seemed so sad, even when she was smiling.
He hesitated going up to her, though he wanted to. Lord knows how badly he wanted to! But it was an insane desire, wasn’t it? He didn’t even know her. He had no right to even be here, watching her.
And yet…yet he was drawn to her. It was something instinctive, something primeval, something…familiar. Before he knew it, he was walking towards her and for a second he had the absurd thought that he was walking towards his destiny.
Shaking such thoughts from his mind he searched for something to say to get her attention. Her back was to him and she appeared too deep in thought to take notice of him. For a moment, he watched the way she seemed to be looking up at the carousel with that distant look on her face. He wondered what she was thinking. Wondered what she was remembering that had her so sad.
Knowing that he had better say something soon, he racked his brain. Stuffing his hands in his jacket’s pocket, he said the first thing that came to his mind. “It used to be a grand old thing before they closed it down.”
With a startled gasp, his angel turned around, clearly not having been aware of his presence.
“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to startle you,” he said, sounding embarrassed and apologetic.
For a moment the girl stood staring at him, her eyes wide with what Max could only describe as shock and hesitation. He cursed himself mentally when he saw her reaction. What had he been thinking going up to her? She must think he’s some stalking lunatic or something.
Then the most amazing thing happened. A slow, shy smile spread across her face, lighting up her eyes. Max sucked in his breath when he realized how beautiful she looked when she smiled like that. For a moment, he could have sworn that her eyes had lit up with pure pleasure, every trace of lingering sadness gone. But just as quickly as her smile had come the cautiousness once more had clouded her eyes.
Tucking her hair nervously behind her ear, Liz couldn’t believe her luck. “I – uh, I thought I was alone here,” she said.
“Oh. I’m sorry if I invaded your privacy or interrupted whatever you were doing,” the guy said. Liz could have sworn he sounded almost…well, disappointed. “I’ll leave you alone, I guess,” he said as he turned to leave.
Liz was immediately grabbed by irrational panic. Panic over sending him away and never seeing him again. “Wait!” Liz found herself blurting out. When the guy turned to look at her half curiously and half hopefully, Liz tugged a little at her hair in nervousness, struggling to find the words to stop him from leaving without seeming too eager. “I said that I
thought I was alone. Not that…not that I
wanted to be.”
A slow smile spread across his handsome face and Liz felt something inside her flutter at the sight.
“I’m Max. Max Evans,” he said as he came up to her and offered his hand out to shake.
Liz reached out to shake his hand and the second they touched sparks ignited. She could feel the current run through him and into her; she could almost visualize the sparks erupting between them at just the touch of his skin. With a soft gasp, Liz’s eyes flew to meet Max’s and she saw the nervous confusion written in them, too. He had obviously felt what she had and was just as surprised as she was.
Liz swallowed nervously as she stammered out her name. “L-Liz. Liz Parker.”
They both continued to stare at each other, their hands still clasped before they realized it and hastily dropped them. Clearing his throat, Max assumed an indifferent air and stepped up besides her to lean against the railing as well. Liz took the cue from him and did the same, making sure she wasn’t touching him.
With a small smile, he looked up at the carousel in remembrance. “I used to love coming here with my sister as a kid,” Max spoke. “I was very upset when they closed it down.”
Determined to keep things nonchalant between the stranger and herself, Liz too turned her attention to the carousel. “It’s a shame that magic such as this should go to waste.” Then realizing what she had just said, she shot Max an embarrassed smile. “That must have sounded so stupid.”
To her surprise, Max was smiling gently at her as he answered, “No, not at all. In fact I think so, too.”
“You do?” Liz asked skeptically.
Max nodded. “This place is magic.” He shrugged as he continued. “There is just something about carousels that lets me escape for a moment.”
“Escape from what?” Liz asked, almost in a whisper, feeling his words echoing her own thoughts.
“From whatever is troubling me at the moment. Could be as simple as a fight with my sister to some major problems.” He turned away from his perusal of the carousel to give her a smile, taking in her guarded expression. “It doesn’t matter how big the problem, or how complicated. I know that coming here will help me solve it, or at least I’ll be able to get my mind of the problem.”
“That’s a pretty strong faith you have there,” Liz commented, a teasing smile making its way on her lips.
Max felt an answering grin tug at the corners of his mouth and he countered, “Don’t you?”
“Yeah,” Liz admitted, biting her lip. “I guess I do.”
She moved away from the railing and took a step towards the park’s main path. Max fell in step with her, watching from the corner of his eyes as the wind played with her long locks. His fingers ached to reach out and entangle themselves in her hair but he fisted his hand in his pocket to stop himself from doing so. He wondered once more what had prompted her to come here in the middle of the night; what problem was it that had her seeking relief.
“So, what are you doing out here at this time of night?” Max asked her as they walked side by side.
Liz grabbed an unruly strand of hair and pushed it firmly behind her ear, pausing as she contemplated her answer. Here she was with a perfect stranger in the middle of the night in some strange town she didn’t even know. The last thing she should be doing is talking to him. After everything she had been through, she should know better than to be so careless in dealing with people she didn’t know.
But for some odd reason she felt so safe with Max. So at ease… If he asked the right questions, she was pretty sure that she would have told him, even if only briefly, about Sean and her life. That thought alone should have scared her, made her leave and put some distance between them, but it didn’t. Rather, she threw caution to the wind, determined to enjoy one carefree moment with this enigmatic stranger who she felt an uncanny connection with.
She shrugged slightly as she contemplated his question. “I guess I was trying to forget my problems for a moment. I thought a walk might take things off my mind,” she answered.
Max noticed the flicker of sadness in her eyes and he wisely decided not to ask anything that might cause her to remember what she had obviously come here to forget. So he quickly grabbed on her other words, staying clear of her worries.
“A walk? In the middle of the night?” Max asked with an amused smile.
“Hey! I couldn’t sleep, okay,” Liz replied in a mock-offended tone. She gave him a teasing look. “And what about you?” She looked down purposefully at his running shoes. “What had you out running in the middle of the night?”
Max glanced down at his shoes before looking back up at her. “I happen to like running in the middle of the night,” he answered. At her disbelieving look, he nodded his head insistently. “I’m not kidding! There’s just something about having the street all to myself that attracts me.”
“Well, I guess we all have out little quirks.”
Max raised an eyebrow at her. “Oh? And what might your ‘little quirk’ be?” he asked.
Liz batted her eyes innocently at him. “What makes you think I have one?” she joked.
Instead of answering, Max reached out and tucked a strand of hair behind her ear, letting his fingers linger for a second longer than necessary. Liz’s breath caught at the contact and Max’s gaze held hers gently holding her captured.
“That, right there, is your quirk, Liz Parker,” Max whispered softly, his eyes still locked onto hers, making both of their hearts speed up at their closeness.
Max hadn’t intended to allow himself to touch her. He hadn’t wanted to spark that obvious connection but he hadn’t been able to stop himself. Her hair felt silky smooth under his fingers and he was drawn into the depths of her soulful brown eyes. Eyes in which pain, hurt, betrayal, and now desire lurked. He couldn’t tear his eyes away from her. He felt familiarity and longing sweep through him, rushing through his veins, making him want to take her in his arms and kiss her.
This was insane; he was insane! He had just met her and already he couldn’t get enough of her. He didn’t know what was wrong with him but Liz Parker seemed to have him under a spell and he wasn’t sure he wanted to break out of it…
Liz was beginning to lose herself in his eyes. She felt something familiar tug at her, something about him calling out to her. She didn’t know what to make of it. She couldn’t deny the instant attraction she had felt towards Max but she had to be cautious. She couldn’t give in to what her body so desperately seemed to want, Max…in her arms.
She forced her thoughts to take a more rational turn and Liz’s mind suddenly registered how closely they were standing. Both had unconsciously taken a step towards each other and were now almost toe-to-toe. She saw his eyes darken and something flash in their depths; something that looked a lot like desire. Abruptly, panic erupted in her.
Taking a step back from Max, her eyes wide with fear she stammered, “I-I’ve got to go…”
She couldn’t, she wouldn’t go there! How could she have let her guard down like that? How could she have let a guy have such an effect on her? One that she had just met at that! Hadn’t her run in with Sean taught her anything?
“Liz…,” Max began, looking confused and apologetic at the same time.
But Liz shook her head quickly, backing away. “No. I can’t…” She bit her lip sorrowfully. “I’m sorry…”
With those words, she turned and ran away from him, leaving him standing there, confused and wondering what just happened.
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TBC. . .</center>