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XVI
Cracks
Liz arrived just in time. She liked being punctual –it showed respect for the other person, regardless of whoever that other person was- and despite the apprehension she felt about this coming…
appointment, she still had done everything to be right on time.
She had found the door slightly open –she had guessed it was like that so she would see where the door was- and had stood two feet away from it for a whole minute. Take a deep breath and just get in, she had coached herself. Besides, if Michael had left this place in one piece, sure enough it couldn’t be that bad, right?
She desperately hoped the answer was “right”.
So she walked the short distance and pushed the door open all the way. She had had a mental picture of Dave’s office, but neither Kyle nor Michael had elaborated too much on the details. Liz noticed those details only because Dave was standing, watching something out the window with his back to her.
Dave’s office was carpeted in a deep blue-greenish color. His dark desk was the size of a dining room table for eight, and it looked as if it were made of a very heavy wood. It was covered with a thick dark glass as well, which reflected the white light coming from the ceiling’s only large light bulb.
His famous puzzle was taking form on the bottom part of it, obviously the place where Dave had been working on it. But now she understood why Dave was able to take piece after piece and place them so fast, as both Michael and Kyle had said. It was because the pieces were already separated into colors and similar textures. He didn’t have to lose time in searching and searching all the sky pieces from the sand pieces and the plant ones. They were scattered in various tiny hills inside the already assembled edge.
Liz could see too that the puzzle was an oasis just about to be engulfed by a desert storm, the dust cloud looking every bit as menacing as if it were alive, a real dust monster taking his lunch. The curious thing was that when Kyle had told them it was a puzzle about a desert storm, she had assumed it was a rock desert, like the one she had lived in her entire life. But it wasn’t. It was the Sahara type of desert, dune after dune.
She glanced to her right where the numbers were on the wall, and as Kyle did before her, she thought it odd, but nothing remotely stirred inside her like it had with Michael.
Dave turned to look at her, making Liz realize he was wearing a sweater too. A gray, wool handmade sweater that made his hazel eyes look more clear, almost honey-like. How many secrets did those eyes conceal? Liz could only imagine, but she had to give credit to the man for the fact that, under different circumstances, Liz would never guess this man was capable of making six kids disappear into the night without anyone –including said kids- knowing it.
“Want some hot chocolate?” Dave said, placing his own mug on the table, the hot chocolate still steaming. As Liz entered the room before answering, she did notice the room’s temperature was colder in here than in any other place in the complex. And the explanation to this was just in plain sight.
The window that was behind Dave was actually divided in 2 by 2 foot squares separated by thin, black, metal lines, and the last square at the bottom left was shattered in a million pieces to the exact point it was still holding on but a simple sneeze would definitely break it apart.
Following her gaze, Dave looked behind him and smiled. Then, turning to look at her, his smile still in place, he said by way of a joke: “Never piss off Michael.” Liz’s eyebrows shot skyward, her eyes round too, almost in a perfect imitation of Maria’s gesture of disbelief.
“Michael was just making a point I’d better not forget,” Dave said calmly, “but he certainly screwed up my cozy environment in here.” Dave walked to his right –Liz’s left- toward the cupboard. “And I won’t order it repaired until your husband has been here, because I get the feeling I’ll end up with more than just one glass shattered if I don’t watch my mouth these next days. So, hot chocolate?”
Liz’s eyes hadn’t unglued themselves from him until his last comment about the window not being in one piece after Max had been here. Her eyes then turned to the shattered glass at the bottom. What had Dave said to Michael? And why had Michael chosen not to tell them that?
Her eyes finally moved from that particular spot and turned to Dave, who was patiently waiting for her answer about whether she wanted hot chocolate or not. How different from the Dave of her dreams, tapping and tapping his pencil on the counter.
“No, thank you,” Liz finally managed to say, regaining her composure. So, Dave wanted to talk, then they would talk, but she wasn’t planning on saying one more word than necessary. She sat on the chair in front of her –a black, leathered chair with a high back. It was very comfortable too. Dave’s chair was exactly like hers.
“Okay,” Dave said, taking a small bag of marshmallows from the cupboard. “Maybe later,” he added, shrugging a little. He deliberately took his time to get to the desk, open the bag and place a handful of marshmallows inside his mug, all the time gazing at what he was doing and at her. He’s waiting for me to talk, Liz thought, trying very hard to not bite her lower lip. Well, then you are in for a long wait.
As casually as he had picked up the marshmallows, Dave slid his left hand into his left pocket and took something out of it, something small and transparent from what Liz could see. He put it on the desk and pushed it so the object would slide in a straight line to her, without touching a single piece of the puzzle on the desk. She followed it with her gaze during the short distance –around 7 feet- and it stopped right in front of her. Liz’s eyes widened as she realized what it was.
“You have the key,” she said, almost above a whisper, her mind racing with images of the “diamond” she and Max had stolen. On that same second she also thought of the fact that if Dave had it, how much did this man know and what did it mean and the things—
“That’s what it is?” Dave asked, taking his seat, stirring marshmallows into his hot chocolate with a silver spoon, as calm as he always seemed to be. “We had no idea why the heck you guys wanted it so badly… Certainly you weren’t after the diamond itself.”
“You didn’t know—but—why do you have it then?” Liz asked astonished. Was Dave telling the truth about not knowing the diamond was a key, or was he just fooling around?
“No. I didn’t know the
original was a key. This is your replica…” Dave said, pausing to take a sip, Liz’s eyes never leaving the diamond which wasn’t
the diamond. “Let me explain,” Dave said when he saw her confused look. “The first time I saw you, Liz, it was at a party. Gosh, I had to sneak away from Ray’s watching eyes to get to Las Cruces on time. I should add that I went to there against my own wishes and words about being that close to you. But I wanted to see you and Max in person. Not up close, but from afar. I just… well, I just had to know why you were going to…
assist at a diamond exhibition.”
“You were there?” Liz asked, frowning, her mind racing through her memory. Had she seen Dave that night?
“As far away from you as I could get, but yes, I was there... I had to arrange a lot of things for
you to be there as well. Didn’t you ever wonder why you weren’t stopped at the exit when you were leaving? Or why you could get that job so easily?”
Liz couldn’t speak for ten seconds; but finally she managed to look him straight in the eye. “It was all you? You arranged it?”
“Well, yeah, you got the better of my curiosity. I had to see what you were up to,” Dave said, smiling a little, his eyes pinned on the marshmallows circling in his mug. “Want to hear a funny story? Delores Browning is one of the most… how to say it… umm…
arrogant women I have ever met, and that’s saying a lot. So when you and Max applied to work at her exhibition with all her diamonds, I had to make up this elaborate story about this girl who I wanted to impress. ‘You can expect anything to happen, Delores’, I told her, ‘because I want to impress her so badly’. She thought I was talking about her, of course. I, on the other hand, didn’t know what to expect from you. Thank you for not disappointing me, though.” Dave ended, gesturing with his mug as if he were going to make a toast, nodding a little.
Liz lowered her eyes to the desk, to no point in particular, remembering that exhilarating night a year and a half ago. They had planned every step, every word she was going to say. Max had come up with the idea, Liz had played along. But even when she was actually insulting “the” Delores Browning, Liz couldn’t believe herself. She was actually deceiving someone, looking so crazy, yelling and throwing Chapman to this woman… But somehow, it had been all because Dave had allowed it, hadn’t it? Their getting the job, being allowed to leave so soon, without too many questions… This time, Liz did bite her lower lip.
“Oh, come on,” Dave said leaning over his desk. “It was brilliant! For one moment there you truly fooled me, and I knew a lot more than anyone in that room.” Liz looked at him, her mind not quite clear, memories of that night, that entire scene still playing in her mind.
“And then Max caught in mid-air a diamond that couldn’t break to begin with. That’s what made me curious. Of course, Mrs. Browning was fuming so bad you wouldn’t believe what she charged me for the… I guess ‘fake’ diamond you kids left behind.”
“You bought it,” Liz said, not asking, there was no point in that. The diamond was right in front of her.
“Of course I did. I wasn’t surprised when it was confirmed that the ‘diamond’ wasn’t a real diamond… But until today I had no idea why it was so important you would take such risks in stealing it,” Dave said, raising an eyebrow as a matter of emphasizing his last statement. “So, what does it open?”
Liz blinked, Dave’s eyes pinned on hers. “Well, you said it’s a key. A key to what?” Dave asked anxiously, like a kid waiting for a gift. And this Dave did look a lot like the one she had dreamed of, ready to shred anything that was placed in his hands, napkins or otherwise. And yet, she remained silent. She had barely said two complete sentences since she had gotten here and Dave already knew about the key. No, she was not going to talk further. Maybe she could just sit in silence for the next four hours or so… Darn it! Why couldn’t she just break a glass and be over with it?
Dave seemed to understand this and tried to conceal his disappointment as well as he could. Sighing, he let go of his excitement. “You know, that wasn’t the only time you kids didn’t plan out every detail as you should have.”
Liz frowned. “What do you mean?” she asked, her mind racing again. What now? Where and when else?
“Do you remember your hearing, Liz?”
“You were also in the court room in Utah?” Liz asked again. In how many places had this man actually been?
“No, of course not,” Dave said smiling. “But if you remember correctly, well, they found hair follicles…” it seemed to Liz that frowning was becoming a habit on this room because she just couldn’t stop doing it. For the tenth time that morning she frowned again. Where was Dave going with this? She remembered Max’s father saying something about DNA from hair follicles not being submitted as evidence in Utah, but frankly, it was all very vague in her mind now.
“Do you have any idea what would have happened if Max’s DNA had been found in that crime scene?” Dave asked, all serious now, clearly knowing Liz had not thought about that at all. None of them had. She remembered Phillip Evans saying that the only evidence there was consisted of “strands of hair”… But in the end it had been her voice and height that had made the judge rule against her. As the memory of that disastrous day became clearer in her mind, she remembered that strands of hair weren’t allowed as evidence.
“You, or more likely, Max, are so lucky the state of Utah didn’t allow DNA from hair follicles as evidence in your particular case or he would still be in custody right now, and not exactly the police kind of custody.” Placing both his hands around his mug, which was now over his desk, he continued, “I learned a
lot of Utah’s law system with you two, but the fact remained that Max’s DNA was bagged somewhere in the criminal investigation section, bagged for further procedure if there needed to be one more look at it. Frankly, they weren’t going to be accepted anyway, of course, but the threat still remained…”
“Remained…” Liz said almost above a whisper, fearing for something that hadn’t happened, and yet, she couldn’t shake the thought of…
custody.
“Remained, yeah. It was all taken care of as soon as it was possible. You kids have placed yourselves in so many dangers in such a short time, it was almost as if you wanted to be in danger… I liked it better when your biggest crime was leaving for Vegas…”
Liz swallowed hard. How long—how many times had he— What was she supposed to say now? “Thank you”?
“Is there something you don’t know?” She briefly closed her eyes, and embrace herself for God knew what.
“Plenty,” Dave said. “Like what that key opens, for instance… Or the fact that it is a key to begin with… Or why you didn’t tell anyone about Max… Or why you married him despite everything that commitment requires. I don’t know a million things, Liz. And I want to know. I want to know about the woman who married someone that, according to modern science, shouldn’t be here. I want to know about you, the girl who made a boy from another planet fall in love with her so badly he risked everything he had to risk.”
Despite herself, Liz blushed. She didn’t want to, indeed, but Dave’s words were true. She had asked Max why he had fallen in love with her more than once, and all Max had done was shrug and say
I could tell you a million reasons and more, but the fact is that it was you, all of you. There just aren’t rules for love, Liz silently thought. Dave just looked at her, almost as if he were amused by watching her think. But for an instant there Liz saw him glancing at his puzzle, almost as if he were mentally putting pieces together. Liz wondered if he was grasping his mug so tight because he couldn’t actually reach the pieces with his hand.
“You want to keep putting pieces together, don’t you?” Liz asked with a side smile, almost with pride. After all, she
had caught him.
Busted, Dave noticed Liz watching him a second too late. It was his turn to blush, and Liz was surprised by that. After all, as far as she knew, blushing wasn’t something a person could fake.
Smiling, and a little bit embarrassed, Dave stood up, taking his mug with him, and slowly turned around, standing in front of the window. “It’s easier with boys to show indifference and just keep putting it all together,” Dave said, turning his head to look at her and gesturing to join him, “they are more comfortable with it. But women! Ah, women would feel outraged if they don’t have your complete attention. So, yes, I’m itching to put pieces together, but I know better.”
Unsure of what to do, Liz finally stood up and cautiously walked to stand beside him. Every step she walked it felt more and more as if she were entering some forbidden place, or more likely, a lion’s den. “Besides,” Dave continued, now looking out the window, “there are other things that capture my mind just as badly as puzzles.”
It was snowing out there, Liz could see now that she was standing in front of the window herself, feeling a slight air current coming from her left, the place where –apparently- Michael had shattered the glass. But out there, where everything was white snow over white snow, everything seemed so… peaceful. No one was walking around, so the snow was untouched, and snowflake after snowflake passed in front of her on the other side of the window, eerily illuminated by a bluish light somewhere above the window outside. It seemed to Liz that it had been ages since she had just stared at snow falling like that with no hurry.
“Why have you been after us all this time?” Liz suddenly asked, with such calmness that if she had said “how beautiful the snow looks” it would have sounded exactly the same. But Liz had to know. What were they to him? A project? A hobby? For all the things he kept saying there just didn’t seem to be a consistent pattern in here. First, he didn’t want to be seen with them, but noe he’s deciding what to do with them? What had changed his mind?
“Well,” Dave said, his eyes not leaving the outside world, “Why not?”
Liz stared at him. What was with Dave that he took this entire situation so lightly? He had assured them he had never been in Roswell, but yet he had wanted to see them so he had done so
outside of Roswell. He had, indeed, stayed out of her hometown almost as if it were forbidden for him to be there.
“Why didn’t you just contact us?” Liz asked getting into her logic, knowing it was going to be the only way to get some answers of her own. What Liz didn’t know was that Dave was so used to playing against logic it was practically second nature to him. After all, logic had a pattern, and everything Dave had done from the first moment he could remember was search for patterns and –as he had been taught later on- to crash them.
“Honestly? I didn’t know how. As I told Kyle, I didn’t want to… well, mess with your lives. And by the time I finally made up my mind, I was too late. You were no longer in Roswell. It became incredibly complicated to approach you then. Not that it was easy to begin with, mind you.” Dave said, glancing at her before sipping his hot chocolate.
“So you just waited seven months to put on that show? You know, with the rooms and everything?” Liz said, suddenly feeling cold and somehow unprotected standing beside this man, this stranger. There was something just downright unsettling about talking to a man who had their lives hanging on a string.
“Seven months was never the plan,” Dave said, though Liz didn’t know if he had said it thoughtfully, seriously, or both.
“So you had a plan all that time?”
“A plan that you kids kept trashing, if I might add. But in the long run, I guess it had its benefits. You gave me more than enough time to make corrections and settle other things down here in the complex.”
“Wait a second,” Liz said, raising one of her eyebrows, her previous helpless feeling fading away. Now she was trying to catch the slightest crack in Dave’s statements. “What do you mean we ‘kept trashing your plans’?”
* * *
There were, indeed, other things that captured his mind as badly as puzzles, and Liz Parker Evans was one of those.
Dave turned to look at her, a little bit amused, a little bit surprised, but completely proud. He had been giving her cracks throughout all his statements just to see if she would catch them, but she was scared and confused, so her mind hadn’t been clear, until now.
“You were supposed to be brought here six weeks ago, but a snow storm made that impossible,” Dave told her, leaning on the desk, his eyes lost outside the window. God, he loved to see snow falling so badly. “And then you kept moving, separating. You were hard to locate, and it was practically impossible to predict your next move.” Dave said, still not looking at her.
Liz leaned over the desk as well, her eyes turning to the falling snow. He couldn’t know that Liz was thinking the reason it had been “practically impossible to predict” their future goings was because Kyle kept flipping a coin in the air to decide their next move. Completely random… completely chaotic for anyone who had been searching for a pattern on their movements. Of course, more than once, Maria, Isabel and herself had punched him hard for guiding them into The-Middle-Of-Nowhere Town.
“And the FBI was always getting closer to you…” Dave said, getting more serious now. He had to make her see –make
them see- how much danger their lives had been in. Not only because it would make them feel safer down here, making them feel his offer was their best decision, but because once they got out there again, it wouldn’t be much different. They had to see their past mistakes in order to not repeat them.
“You really didn’t know about the FBI Special Unit until later on?” Liz asked, her eyes not seeing the snow, just looking outside, fearful for one of the worst threats to her life and everyone’s lives in her group.
“I really didn’t know,” Dave sincerely answered. Kyle, Michael and now her had all asked him why he hadn’t come to them sooner, before the Army, before everything had gone to hell, and that meant they weren’t buying the fact that he hadn’t known what to do with them back then. That little explanation wasn’t the truth, but he just wasn’t going to change his version now. However, the other thing this “revelation” told him was that they perceive him, in some twisted way, as some sort of guardian. A protector. And he was protecting them, of course, protecting them from the outside world and all its dangers, but… in the long term, it wasn’t going to be protection he would give them.
“Are you really going to dissipate them? Take them off our backs?” Liz asked, not even glancing at him, her eyes still watching the outside world as a bird in a cage watches its freedom so close and yet so far.
“I’m sure going to try,” Dave said, knowing as well as Liz did that his words were meaningless. Whether he dissipated them or not would be something they would know with time. Right now, they were just empty words. But, even if there was no way he could really prove it to Liz, Dave hoped that she believed him because he
was dissipating them, just very slowly. Just in the only way he had been able to do so.
“And you are not going to hurt him?” Liz asked, this time turning to look at him straight in the eye, some inner struggle deciding if she could believe his answer or not.
“I will never hurt any of you, as long as you don’t hurt any of mine. That was the deal.” Dave said, as calmly and confidently as he could so Liz would somehow feel that this was the truth. Because as far as he was concerned, it
was the truth. For all the right or wrong reasons, he just couldn’t afford that anyone hurt them. And he was expecting that
they couldn’t afford to hurt him neither. Liz nodded, very slowly at first, but then with more confidence, as if she were deciding that she could trust him, even if just a little.
“You know how everyone feels they’re alone?” Liz said, turning to look at the window again. Dave frowned. Where was Mrs. Evans going? Liz seemed to sense this because, turning with a shy smile, she said, “You said you wanted to know why I kept Max’s secret and why I married him despite everything the commitment requires, so I’m trying to explain it to you.”
Dave smiled, and taking another sip from his hot chocolate, he nodded in understanding.
“Well,” Liz said, her gaze returning to the outside world, her mind going to a time and place invisible for him. “When I first found out I wasn’t dead and that Max had saved me because of what he is, I was mesmerized… but then I started doubting. I started questioning why Max had risked everything… And Max must have sensed that all my questions would inevitably lead to the wrong conclusions, because he came to me to explain things. Despite the fact that Michael had wanted to leave so badly, Max stayed. He truly believed that I would understand if he told me. If he let me see that it was still him…”
Liz paused for a second, smiling at some inner memory, her eyes bright with a new light that hadn’t been there when she had entered that room less than ten minutes before. In silence, Dave wondered what inner strength drove this young girl that had not run away when she had found out, beyond a doubt, that aliens did live among them.
“He made a connection, and I saw… I
felt everything he was letting me see, and I knew I wasn’t alone. For the first time in my life, I knew what someone else was capable of feeling. How someone else truly viewed me.” Liz stopped, turning to look at him for a moment, trying to make her point come across. “It all really started with that connection… and Max became this incredible person, this exciting person that was making my life so much more. I wasn’t a small town girl anymore. My life was different because he was different,” Liz reflected, like it was the first time that she was giving it a thought, though in reality it was only the first time she was saying it out loud.
“So,” Dave said, looking at her as she returned her view to the window, “the ‘exciting’ never stopped?”
Liz shook her head “no” slightly and slowly. “It did. Eventually it wore off… and I was with Kyle, and then I wasn’t, and there was all this… stuff happening… And then the excitement was over and there was just Max,” Liz said, frowning a little, smiling a little, as if the thought were amusing. And for Dave, it was. “He wasn’t any different than what he had always been before he healed me. He sort of lost that mysterious aura after a while. I mean, he lost it once I realized it really was still him: My lab partner.” Liz let go a small, mischievous smile. “My lab partner that had let me see his soul,” she corrected, “who didn’t have a clue I knew he had loved me since the third grade.”
Dave had been sipping his hot chocolate until that point. He almost choked himself. “That’s a long time,” he managed to get out, trying not to stop Liz in her account of events.
“So,” Liz said, turning once more to look at him, “that’s when I really fell in love with Max. Once I got past the shock and the excitement. That was when I started to know him for who he was, not for what he was, or what he had risked, or what he could do.”
“It never bothered you then… that he was different? That he was being chased? That ultimately you would give up a lot to be with him? I mean… why is it worth that?” Dave calmly asked her. He knew from Michael and Kyle that Max and Liz hadn’t had it easy. He knew from school gossip that there had been a lot of ups and downs between those two. So, why had Liz stuck with Max? Why was she still sticking with him?
“‘If it isn’t complicated, he probably isn’t your soul-mate’,” Liz whispered with the slightest of smiles, clearly quoting someone else. Then her manner became serious. “Once the excitement wore off, other things became obvious too,” Liz said, looking at some point below the windows. “The scary part… That one day someone could come and take Max away. Could come and take them away.” Liz crossed her arms over her chest in a protective way. “He was just Max but… circumstances were far from normal. And it all was just so…
unfair, for all of them. They were born into something that they just couldn’t escape…” She sighed, letting her frustration go.
“It sounds like a good reason to not fall in love with one of them,” Dave said, arching one eyebrow, sipping his hot chocolate again. Liz turned to look at him, her eyes lost in memories of not so long ago.
“I won’t lie to you,” Liz said, looking straight at him, “it’s not easy. It never has been. His alien side… his alien past… it’s not something he could or can get rid of.” She gave a little sigh, and turned her eyes to the window again. “But through all it implied, all the good and all the bad…and the scary and the exciting… Through all of it, all the kisses and all the hurt… at some point I just realized that you can’t take love in black and white, in right and wrong… not without all these shades in between. At one point I just had to ask myself if Max was what I really wanted, despite the implications.. If I could see a future with him. If I wasn’t losing myself on something that wasn’t really there.”
“Did it take you long to answer yourself?” Dave asked, intrigued. It wasn’t a fairy-tale kind of love, as some could imagine when they saw how Max and Liz gravitated toward each other. It was the kind of love that had been fought through. The kind that had a better chance to succeed, he guessed.
“I took my time,” she sincerely answered him. “I wanted to be sure that when I woke up someday in the future, I wouldn’t regret my decision. And in the end, I chose to be with him, wherever it leads me. I chose to fall in love with him all over again because without him, there’s no future I want. And I have never stopped since that moment, falling in love. That’s why it was, and still is all worth it, all of it. Because I love him... And because he loves me back.”
It sounded so simple and yet so complicated, Dave absently thought. How one’s dreams had to change, or wait, in order to fulfill that one and only wish: That you would be with this one person who would make it all worth while.
“Love,” Dave said softly, his mug resting in his hand on his lap, his eyes looking out the window just like Liz’s, “the biggest leap of faith. The purest form of trust. And he trusts you,” Dave stated, “that’s a powerful reason to want to be with anyone. And trust like that isn’t easy to earn, or easy to keep.”
Liz stopped staring out the window and, lifting her eyes to see him, she tilted her head a little, frowning. “Do you trust in anyone?” she boldly asked, taking Dave aback. He arched his eyebrows, almost offended.
“I mean,” Liz said, studying his face, “Can a man like you trust in anyone?”
Dave turned to look out the window, his own memories of countless times with Jake coming to his mind. Liz was partially right, a man like him couldn’t afford to trust in the wrong people, but no one could go on living his entire life without trusting someone at one point or another. If not for anything else, it just wasn’t practical.
“I trust in Jake,” he simply said, without anymore explanation. He had wanted Liz to ask one or two questions related to his motives because it amused him to divert people, drive them to the wrong conclusions, but now they were getting too personal for him to like. Still, he knew he couldn’t just leave it like that. “I don’t have the benefit of a connection, but I think he trusts in me back.”
“Is that why he’s the one in charge of the Lab? Why you sent Max, Michael and Isabel to him? Because you trust him?” Liz asked, a girl so used to asking questions it was second nature to her; Dave liked that. He liked that of anyone, because there are no answers if there are no questions. Dave smiled at her mischievously.
“I don’t know if this connection you have with Max allows you to know him as well I do Jake after 32 years of friendship, but have you ever felt what Max wants the most in the world?”
“What do you mean?” Liz said, hugging herself, as if she was suddenly cold.
“What Jake wants the most in the world is to be a common, simple human being,” Dave said, briefly closing his eyes, sighing slightly, almost exasperated. “He wonders half of the time what it would be like to have a desk job, a wife, two kids and a white house in the suburbs. From the first moment he was told he was a genius he hated the word. Hated what that made him: An outsider. He still hates what he is, even if now he’s pretty much resigned to the fact that what he comprehends hardly anyone else does.”
Jake did ask him from time to time how he could deal with the fact that the patterns he saw on everything were hidden to anyone else, because frankly, Jake was tired of having to explain to others things so clear to himself. Dave always shrugged. He just didn’t care if others could see or not what he was seeing. It was enough for him to know the pattern was there. To hell with everyone else.
“So you placed Jake with them because he pretty much feels what Max, Isabel and Michael feel,” Liz said, concluding Dave’s last statement, “That they are all outsiders on this world.”
“In part, but Jake is a genius on what he does best, and that’s knowing every detail of the human body. Though I gotta tell you Liz, your husband and Co. are giving him the worst of times.”
Oh, his best friend in the entire world hadn’t exactly been complaining about
that, but Dave knew Jake’s incredible patience was approaching its limit. Jake had always been able to have the best of human relationships, and the fact that he couldn’t reach these kids was killing something inside of him.
Liz, however, gave him a small, knowing smile. It was Dave’s turned to frown.
“They’re not doing it on purpose, are they?” Dave asked her, not sure if he wanted to know he had placed Jake in an impossible situation.
“No!” Liz immediately said, “it’s just… it’s just that this whole thing… I mean, you should have expected it,” Liz said, looking at him almost in an accusatory way, her voice starting to raise a little. “You kidnapped us, brought us into this underground prison, practically forced us to accept your offer, and now you’re telling me you don’t understand why they’re ‘giving Jake a hard time’?”
It was a good thing Liz didn’t have powers, Dave thought, or another of his very expensive 2 by 2 feet windows would have been shattered just about now. Liz might look innocent and sweet, but that girl knew how to stand her ground every bit as well as Michael did.
On her part, Liz was also thankful her new powers had been taken away by her husband, or right now she would have given concrete proof of what being brought back from the dead by an alien could do to you.
“Wow, wow, wow,” Dave said, placing his mug on his desk, “All I’m saying is that Jake has great people skills, so I’m just surprised he hasn’t managed to get along with them. But though I am sorry you kids don’t feel safe in here, I don’t regret anything I have done to bring you to this ‘underground prison’. You were sitting ducks out there, and you know that Liz. You all do or you wouldn’t have accepted my offer in the first place. I didn’t force you to accept, I just gave you a real experience of what was waiting for you out there.”
Now, that had come out a lot harsher than he had wanted, but if that was going to be the only way these kids were going to “get it”, well, then he would just get use to yelling at them.
Liz turned to look at the floor, and above a whisper she said: “It’s just too good to be true that someone is selflessly helping us.”
“But I’m not selflessly helping you,” Dave corrected her, Liz turning to see him in a second, “I do expect them to go to the Lab and shed some light on how their powers work.”
“You are going to an awful lot of troubles just to know that…” Liz pointed out, as serious as Dave was now. Another point for you, Dave thought, you found another crack.
“What do you suggest, then? That I kidnap you and threat Max into cooperating or else?” Dave answered back, Liz’s eyes going round. “You know, I do want Jake to…
be in one piece once you decide to leave, and that means making sure neither Max, Michael nor Isabel have a reason to want to hurt anyone here. So, as much trouble as it is, I had to make sure that what I offered was of complete interest to you. I care that much about what Jake might find out. Or that he’s as safe as I want him to be.”
Liz slightly narrowed her eyes, obviously trying to find the crack on that last statement. Well Liz, you might find the cracks, but you’ll never see underneath them, Dave thought, taking his mug again, the hot chocolate inside still steaming a little. And he was right, because in the years to come Liz would see the cracks, but it wouldn’t be until eight years later that she –and all of them- would get to see “underneath” them.
* * *
Max was anxious. He hadn’t turned the page of the book he had in front of him for more than ten minutes now, his eyes were lost in some point of the cell diagram that was shown there. Michael couldn’t blame him though. He didn’t even want to imagine how he was going to be on Friday morning when Maria was going to be talking to Dave. Why had Dave chosen her birthday of all days? Maria hadn’t said much about that, but Michael was pissed off at Dave for doing that to her. If it went wrong Maria would never remember her birthday as a good thing on all her future celebrations. That was, of course, if there were going to be any
future celebrations.
Not that Michael cared all that much about birthdays, to begin with. His own birthday was an arbitrary day picked up by some crazy woman when he had been put under the care of social services. Same for Max and Isabel. And that was why they didn’t have the same birthday, as the three of them knew was the truth: They had all emerged from their pods the same day. Granted, it wasn’t exactly
a birth, but it was the closest thing they could come up with.
But what had brought his mind to birthdays had been something that hadn’t had much to do with Maria’s birthday. It had been Jake. Jake and his murmur about some stupid zodiac thing having to do with Ray. Max, Michael and Isabel had stared at Jake not believing their ears.
NOT again, had been the two words written all over their faces.
Back when they had been found, they hadn’t seen each other because Max and Isabel had already been placed in the system and placed in a home one day before Michael had entered the orphanage. But the three of them had met pretty much the same people in that short time. And that included Ms. Andrade, a Mexican-American woman who spoke very broken English, wore the most astonishing combinations in clothes, and wore every sparkly accessory she could manage. She was also an Astrology freak, claimed to see auras, and read Tea leaves, if Michael remembered correctly.
It had been she who had chosen their birthdays, apparently because of their personalities. It had been she who had given different birthdays to three children who had actually hatched the same day and whose personalities had nothing to do with Zodiac Signs but previous lives… bioengineering and that sort of thing. Usually foster children were given the chance to pick their own birthdays, but since they couldn’t speak, and she was so damn convincing, both families in which they had been placed had accepted the suggested dates. Still, the woman had made an impression on them, and not exactly the good kind.
All their lives the three of them had mocked all that Zodiac crap simply because it didn’t apply. How could the three of them be so different if they had been born at the same time? Of course, when they had heard the message from home, finally knowing about their previous lives and the reason why they were the way they were, they hadn’t really paid any attention at all to what it meant in “Zodiac Signs Land”. It was just some stupid superstition people still believe in.
So when Jake had said something about Ray saying some stupid thing because he was a Scorpio, they had stopped looking at their brand new biology books and stared at him. Jake had stared back.
“What? It’s not such a bad idea,” Jake had said, referring to what Ray had said earlier.
“You believe in Zodiac Signs?” Isabel had asked, going directly to the point, ignoring for one second what Ray had suggested for them to start on How to Escape 101.
“Sure thing,” Jake had answered, and pointing at each one of them in turn, he had said, “Pisces, Scorpio, Sagittarius.” He had been right. Well, right to their supposed Zodiac Signs according to their given birth dates. The three of them had just blinked. Had he guessed? Or had he read their birth certificates? That had to be it, Michael had reflected in an instant.
“Now, before we go into any details about your future sessions,” Jake had continued, without saying another word as to why he believed in Zodiac Signs, “your Biology books arrived yesterday night so we are going to put them to good use.”
So now they were reading the introductory chapter, while Jake had excused himself and had left them in the small room where they had been playing car games on Monday. It unnerved Michael to know that hidden cameras were measuring his physical responses, and Max being so damn obviously distracted wasn’t helping matters. They were supposed to be seeing some stupid cell diagram, which Michael thought was completely and totally boring. He had seen this stuff in High School, why look at it again?
Isabel was distracted as well, and had faint dark circles under her eyes, a clear give away that she hadn’t slept much. She was restless, constantly moving her hand to take away a strand of hair, or she was accommodating herself on the sofa or she was doing another million small movements. Something was eating her up from the inside, but he would ask her later. He was having trouble himself in this place. The couch where he was seated was so damn comfortable that if he didn’t watch himself, in less than thirty minutes he would be dozing off. He had barely slept at all, thinking and rethinking everything that had happened yesterday on Dave’s office. From the minute he had entered the room to the moment the glass had shattered into a million pieces.
That brought on a smile. Even if Dave hadn’t done so much as flinch when the glass had shattered, Michael had made his point, and on this stupid, stupid situation where they were, at least that little…
act had made Michael feel like there were things still under his control. That after all, Dave didn’t have all that power over them.
Still, Michael didn’t fool himself. Dave still held the main cards if not all the cards. Had Dave been scared? Michael wondered for the millionth time that morning. Had Dave truly thought Michael could hurt him? Certainly, he
could, Michael reflected, but had Dave anticipated that little, let’s say, display of power? You might have me under your thumb, but I can still shatter your precious window… can shatter everything, including you, if I feel like it. It
was a childish thought, Michael knew, but it was also the truth.
They had pretty much settled on a mind game: “what I’m telling you, what I’m implying and what I’m just plain refusing to say”. It took him a lot of effort to maintain his patience, because sometimes he could sense Dave trying to see how much he could ask about something personal until Michael jut simply changed the subject. But it happened vice versa as well. Michael could start trying to dig a little bit up –
what did you do if you weren’t in High School? Who did you want to piss off if not your teachers? – and with that damned smile of his, Dave would just go off with something stupid, relating it to the last thing he had wanted to say, and effectively changing the subject. They weren’t fooling themselves, they both knew what the other was doing, but by accepting this dance, they both could get away with their own secrets. Or had they? Had he?
But things had escalated when Dave had started to ask him about Maria. Then about Max, and Isabel, and then about Maria. And about Tess, and how they had escaped just the week before, and then about Maria again. What was his interest with the love of his life? Dave had wanted to know why he had finally decided that Maria at his side was the right choice. And Michael hadn’t been able to answer him. Not because he didn’t know, but because it truly frightened him, right down to the bottom of his soul, now knowing what Dave might do with such information.
And Dave had changed the subject once again, knowing there was no answer for him this time. It freaked Michael out that Dave could so easily read him, that Dave knew so well how to handle these kinds of conversations, knowing when to push and when to let go. It was like Max had said about being a leader with insight: How did one know what to do?
What kind of person was Dave? They had been watched for around two years, that much they knew, since it hadn’t been until Max had healed children in Phoenix that Dave had truly found them, but before that? What did Dave do? They also knew Dave was going away after Saturday… but where? What were his projects about, as Ray had told them when they had had dinner together? But most of all, what exactly was Dave trying to discover with these meetings? Through all his accounts of events with the Skins, Dave had remained silent, very focused on Michael’s words, clearly intrigued by it, but he hadn’t asked anything. It was the same with Laurie and the Gandarium. Sometimes Michael would just stop and Dave would look up from his puzzle, questioning with his eyes as to why he had stopped.
All alien events were monologues for Michael. But when he started to talk something relationship wise, the questions would begin. Endless and relentless they seemed, and Michael had to keep tabs on what he was supposed to say and what he wasn’t. Dave was intrigued about them and their relationships, that was clear, but why? Were they some sort of soap opera that Dave had been following for the past twenty-four months? The only good thing about that was, every now and then, Dave made references to his own life in order to make some relation or to settle the base of yet another question. It was for those glances into this man’s life that Michael had kept talking.
Carelessly, not really paying attention, Michael turned the page he was pretending to read, setting his eyes on some stupid diagram related to something called Action Potentials. Something to do with neurons, but that was all he knew as his thoughts returned to his own amusements, efficiently ignoring the book he had in front of him. Though he wasn’t exactly ignoring this place all that much.
At least they weren’t playing car games, thank God. When they had arrived early Jake had shown him the white screen and then had changed it so Michael could see what Max and Isabel had seen the day before: They were being watched. All around the room there were sensors watching him. He hadn’t said anything to Jake about what he thought, much less about how that absolute proof of the fact they were being measured made him feel an unexplainable anger and at the same time an incredible curiosity. He wasn’t a science geek, but it intrigued him to know how he was affecting things and to let others know what he could do. Because after all, since Michael had always embraced his alien side as the only way of salvation, his powers had made him, well, proud. They were the absolute and undeniable thing that confirmed he was not part of the human race.
It was a realization that had startled him the very second he had thought it, but it was also true. It was only ironic that he had been so bad at it in the beginning when he could barely summon his powers, let alone control them. He had envied Max –and Isabel- for the seemingly effortless way they managed the little tricks of manipulating molecules. Michael guessed the truth was that he himself had been afraid of his own alien side. He was so afraid of being discovered and taken away. And every time he had been using his powers a little fear would increase inside of him: What if he was being watched?
Well, the answer had been given when the white screen had come to life showing him the blues and whites and electric light blues around him, all three of them, while Jake’s own blues had looked dull and lifeless. Even Jake had whistled and turning to look at them, he had playfully said:
“Well, aren’t you charged today.” He had turned the screen off, something on his mind. Jake could never conceal it when he was trying to make a decision, it was as if there was a battle going on in his head. It only lasted two seconds, but Michael had seen it. Once the battle was gone from his eyes, it had been then when Jake had started to talk about what he and Ray had talked earlier.
Now they were alone on this room waiting for him to come back. What did Jake have to do with all of this? How much did he actually know? And why, for crying out loud, did it always seem as if Jake himself was out of the loop? And Jake knew this, knew that other things, bigger things, were happening between Dave and them, and yet he had just stayed in the background, or… something… If Jake’s only purpose was to fulfill their part of the deal, to discover how their powers worked, what did it mean? Were Jake and Dave really as closed friends as they had been told? And if so, why risk his best friend into this without telling him the truth?
At his side, Max finally gave signs of life if only to lift his right hand to rub his tired eyes. Gees, by the look of it, none of them had actually slept much the night before. Michael noticed that Max’s left hand was still holding the book in front of him, holding it so hard that his knuckles were getting white. Max was so not there, his mind lost in some place where he could feel Liz’s emotions as well as if they were his. Michael turned worried eyes to Isabel, but there was not much help in there. Isabel’s eyes were lost in the book as well, but they weren’t moving. She was staring, just as Max had been doing, at the page she had in front of her. Obviously, her thoughts were somewhere else too. What was worrying Isabel so much? Oh, the list was pretty long on that department, but still… Isabel was the type of person who could easily conceal her emotions, and so far, she had settled her mind on acting as normal as one could. She was determined to deceit their captors. Well, apparently not right this moment.
Max returned to his previous posture, Isabel kept doing a million restless movements. Michael’s thoughts refused to return to yesterday. Damn, even a little music in this place could distract him a little. They weren’t talking just for the simple fact that they were being recorded. So, whatever was concerning them, it sure couldn’t be discussed here.
What was that place, the place beyond the door to his left? The white, glass looking door that connected this room to the real Lab? Michael himself rubbed his eyes. Part of him was also getting Maria’s feelings from the Gym. Sometimes he could feel her desperation and boredom at the long hours that laid before her till their meeting point. From time to time he would get to feel her laughing, probably at something Kyle had said, and those few moments felt so good to him. He would have to thank Kyle at some point for making her laugh, for making her forget for a second that the world sucked. Sometimes, too, he would let Maria feel him back so she would know he was okay, and the warm feeling of her thanks would fill him. God, Maria felt so good, he could understand why Max just simply didn’t “disconnect”. But that level of commitment… was he ready to let Maria feel him, through goods and wrongs, through happiness and sorrow?
No.
And Dave had asked him that, not in so many words, and not with such tactlessness, but sure, he had asked it. You stayed on Earth because there was no way back? Are you sure
home is out there? What does
home mean to you, anyway? Is “home where the heart is”? Well, maybe Dave
had used a lot of words, after all. But it was as if Dave had been measuring him, measuring the way he loved Maria, if that was even possible. More likely, Dave wondered what Maria meant to him. But Dave knew, Michael was sure of it, that Maria meant
home to him. He was just proving his point, almost as if pointing out that he could use Maria against him if he wanted to. And that had made Michael go cold with fury, finally turning away from Dave’s piercing hazel eyes, moving his own eyes towards the window behind the man who seemed to have all the answers.
“If you hurt her,” Michael had said, his eyes locked on the window, his voice cold and almost emotionless, “you’ll wish you had never found out about Max, about me.” The window had shattered then, Michael containing the tiny little pieces inside the frame. He wanted the glass shattered, true, but he also wanted it to remain, so when Dave finally turned around and looked at it, he would see how many tiny fragments Michael’s power could shatter him.
Dave had only nodded in understanding. He didn’t say a word for almost two minutes, both men locked in their own thoughts. Finally, Dave had spoken again. Calmly, calculated, almost soothing, he had told Michael that he knew Maria’s birthday was coming. “I have an idea for her gift. You might find it useful.” Ten minutes later, Michael had been walking down the corridors of this underground fortress to concreting Dave’s idea of Maria’s gift.
He should have blown out his puzzle, Michael thought as he was turning the page again, he smiled to himself at the sole idea of Dave’s face as the tiny pieces went flying away. He should have thought about that when he had been up there… As the next page came into view, his eyes caught on the bolded words
Neurotransmitters and Receptors. Now,
this was getting interesting. Quickly scanning the paragraph, he found himself lost with the terms of
acetylcholine and
noradrenaline. What were these things? He was turning back the page to see where this all began, and he had just found the title –
Synaptic Transmission- when a loud sound had startled him so bad he had almost ripped the page out of the book.
A second later, the enigmatic white right door had been shattered. Shattered as Dave’s window had been shattered, but this time around Michael had nothing to do with it. The sound had come from the white screen in front of them, some presentation being played there, but the energy that had cracked the white door had come from Max. His best friend was staring at the white door just as perplexed as Isabel and Michael were staring at him. It was as if Max had been coming out of a dream or something, realizing for the first time how tight he had been. He had been so out of it that when the sound had startled all of them, his energy had gone out of control. For Pete’s sake, when had Max ever lost his control over his powers? And being drunk didn’t count. That answer was easy: Never.
“Are you all right?” Isabel asked him, concerned. Max was still staring at the thousands of lines that now were through the entire door. “Max?” Isabel pressed.
“Yeah… I just…” Max said, finally focusing on her, but his mind still obviously trying to figure out what had happened here.
“Lost it?” Michael elaborated. How odd to say that to Max. Max turned to look at him now, more alert than he had been in the past fifteen minutes, about to say something when Jake entered the room. Gosh, the look of guilt on their three faces couldn’t have been more obvious even if they had wanted it to be. Which was ridiculous, because Isabel and himself hadn’t had anything to do with the door being shattered. And besides, it was Jake who had startled them, hadn’t he? Who else could have made whatever was being played on the screen appear?
Pressing the remote he was holding with his right hand, Jake made the screen go white and soundless again; briefly closing his eyes, he heavily sighed.
“Get out,” he simply said, not with anger, not with resentment. Just a simple statement of what they should do right this moment. And though there wasn’t fury in his tone, there was an absolute undertone that was saying “I’m not asking you, I’m
telling you what to do”. And yet, the three of them remained motionless.
“Come on, get out,” Jake said again, this time urging them, almost as if losing his patience. Isabel was about to say something when Jake cut her off. “I don’t care if you go to the corridor outside or if you go to China right now. I just don’t want any of you here.”
They still didn’t move. Now it was anger that was in Jake’s voice. “You are tense as stones, you didn’t sleep at all, your concentration is non existent, and something as ridiculous as a loud sound makes you go breaking things? God, I could kill Dave right now!” Michael frowned. So this anger wasn’t directed at them? Looking at each one of them in turn, Jake continued: “You won’t come back ‘til Dave has finally left this place and you kids can actually concentrate on what the hell you’re doing down here to begin with. I’m just through with trying to reach you when your minds are simply not around here to be reached. So I’ll see you on Monday.”
For the briefest of moments, the three of them turned to look at each other, and almost in unison rose and made it for the door at Jake’s side. It wouldn’t be until they were in the elevator that Michael would notice that he had carried with him the biology book. Actually, it wouldn’t be until that moment too that he would realize how early it was, not even ten o’clock, and the strangeness of the whole thing. What had happened with Jake?
Turning to look at his two best friends in the world, Michael asked them with unspoken words what all this had been about. Isabel shrugged, Max just looked plain guilty. Somewhere inside his very soul he could feel Maria getting worried about his own mixed feelings that had somehow reached her.
“Gym?” Michael finally said, breaking the silence between them. Isabel and Max nodded in approval. As the elevator doors slid open, Michael vaguely thought about the fact that now he had tomorrow and Friday morning free to do as he pleased. Well, whatever the hell had happened down there with Jake, Michael had great plans for this suddenly free time.
TBC…
Author’s Note: The paragraph that included the terms
Neurotransmitters, receptors, acetylcholine, noradrenaline and
synaptic transmission were taken from the book
“Life: The science of biology” by Purves, Orians & Heller, third edition, Edited by Sinauer and Freeman. I’ll be getting information in the future from this book, so, since this is the first time, I thought about saying so here, and making just the references later on
