It hurts, I can't take... M/M matuRe finished

[IsabelleGuerin]

Title: It hurts, I can't take much more of it!!!!!
Author: GroundZeroLover/Angela
Email: babygurlzangel@hotmail.com

Characters:M/M
Rating: R
Disclamior: I own Christina and my story. I do not own the Roswell characters or Roswell!

Summary:Maria is totally in love with Michael. All he ever does is hurt her. She can't take much more.


Maria's Pov

I love this boy, and his name is Michael Guerin. He is an alien! He is the kind of person that doesn't need anyone in his life, I am the total opposite. I need friends, I need family, and I need to be loved. I have been unloved for soo long, and I am getting sick of it, I can't take much more. I need to be loved!!!!

OK, so Michael does these things to hurt me. He always tries new things, because he knows that I can't ever hate him. Its sad, I know! I try so hard to hate him sometimes. He has hurt me so badley, but I am just one of those loving/caring kind of girls, that just can't hate! All he ever does is hurt me and make me cry.
Since he knows I can't hate him, he tries everything he can, to get me to hate him, not because he wants me to hate him, but because he hates that I love him, it hurts him, because he know's he is hurting me, and he cares for me, but he doesn't think he is good enough for me. He doesn't need anybody. I do. In his head, he is saying that he isnt good and there is somebody better out there. But I don't want anybody else, I want him. I want Michael Guerin!

Let's see what are things that he has done to me. Hmmm, lets see. He and his friend got drunk one night, and they were texting me and calling me all night long. They made up a lie, to hurt me. His best friend Kyle Valenti called me up and told me that Michael was gay and that they were lovers. Ya f.u.c.k.i.n.g right. It was soo stupid, I new it was a lie right from the begining. First of all, in the begining of the conversation they were trying to get me to have phone sex. Ya thats right, Michael Guerin PIMPED me off to his best friend. That hurt. Ya you don't go from a total a.s.s.h.o.l.e to a nice caring guy. Ohhh please, *Rolls eyes*!!!! So thats two things he has done that hurt me. Let's see what else. He tells me he loves me and walks away. He tells me he loves me all the time, and then becomes a total jerk and makes me cry.

He tells me he wishes i'd die. Ya isn't that nice of him? He screams at me all these hatefull things, and then the next day he tells me he is sorry and didn't mean a word he said. Ya I HATE YOU, and then I love you. You never ever say the word hate, especially when you do NOT hate them. I don't care if you dislike them, you do NOT say HATE. That word hurts.

He lies and tells me that he has a girlfriend named Christina, and then as soon as I break down in tears he admits it was a lie and begs me to stop crying! He tells me that all of his friends hate me and think i'm insane. He even calls me a nut.

The two days that I needed him, he wasn't there for me. My birthday and the day my grandma died. Thoes were the only two days I begged him to call me. But nope, Michael Guerin could not do that. He couldn't do that, because he new that it would mean everything to me.

I text him and call him all the time and he ignores me. But when he wants to talk with me, I am supposed to stop being hurt and let him talk to me. But no, no, NO not when I need to talk with him!

Sometimes he is very sweet to me. Sometimes it feels like everything is back to normal. He stays being my friend for a few days, or a month or whatever. Loving me, caring for me, being perverted or sarcastic with me, and then BOOM he is a total D.I.C.K!!!!! He acts like he is so heartless sometimes. Some times he could careless if I am hurt, and sometimes he feels so bad he hurt me and comforts me. Hate, love, hate, love,hate, love. JESUS , PICK ONE GOD DAMNIT!!!! You can not hate me one day, and then love me one day and hate me. Stop it. You are hurting me so much!

When he isn't being a total heartless b.a.s.t.a.r.d, he makes me feel SOO LOVED. I guess that is one reason that I can't hate him.

Sometimes Michael says, that he wishes that he never met me and that I ruined his life. And I say well I am glad that I met you, and you may hurt me all the time, but I love you so much that i'd do this all the time. I'd rather feel like shit and then loved and then shit and then loved, then never have met him. I love that I know him and got to know him. I love everything about him, and I would never EVER trade that in. I'd rather be hurt all the time then never have ever met him. Because I love Michael Guerin so much, it hurts, I can't take much more of this!


GoodBye!!!!!!!

The End


By: Angela

[Ti88]

hun r u setting us up for a suicide? or is maria going to go postal on him. i vote for postal, cause as much as i love my candy. i think he's stepped across the line. that goodby has me concerned though.

[IsabelleGuerin]

lol im sory hun. its over. but i duno. shes not killing herself just sad. thanks for the reply:)

[spacebois pixie]

really good but sad

[Island Breeze]

Very emotional! Maria is obviously hurting. You could do a sequel to this where Michael realizes she is hurting and realizes that he cares. That would be cool! but this was a good story. :D

[IsabelleGuerin]

sorry but im not going to do a sequel:( this was really a personally story for me. im glad you like it though